Enough Already !!

I never feel confident. No matter what decision I make. I just wish my intellect and emotions would get on the same page, it would be so much easier. Certain feelings from childhood remain with me. I love my family. Every one of them. There are extremes in the family, all different coping mechanisms. That's how I see it. We're all trying to survive. Some of our coping mechanisms have caused pain for close family members. There is some estrangement...this hurts deeply. I feel for both sides..and for myself, the middle person. There is a financial matter tearing at all of us now. I'm sure a totally objective party could make the right decisions. This is just so hard. I'm not seeing much humor in things today. That's a bad sign. I'll try to claw my way back tomorrow.