This Day

The torture continues. I'd like to write and write and write somemore..until it gets better. Here it is. Looking back, I should have seen it coming. Even reading my posts, I should have known. Horrible feelings...these. Burning skin, agitation, exhaustion, loss of self. Loss of self is the worst. I thought I had more of a self. Then again, maybe it's physical, but I don't know. Whatever it is, it's torture. Will a medication help? I hope so. It's a familiar torture. Intellect vs. emotions. Don't let the emotions take charge. I must get through this. Only I can do this. I am determined!