And for today....

Today I've hit a 4 on the misery scale. I wasn't aiming for it, I just kind of woke up that way. Usually the day gets better, today did not. Who's to say why? Nothing is different. Just my usual funk. I have deficits. I've had them since I was a kid. When I was 19 my head blew open like a big pinata. I've never been the same. Oh well. This week I see my shrink. Maybe there's a magic potion. Shake a rattle over me and cure me. Gone are the valium and bourbon days. They served their purpose. Let's see what's next.